First Post

This is going to be a very brief post. This is a brand new blog, my first blogger blog. I'm quite jazzed about it. When I was a teen I had a live journal (it was so lame).

And a few years back, I had to journal in a hardbound journal. My ex made me do it as a way to express my innermost thoughts. Being in a D/s dynamic I found myself developing a lot mental steam to be vented. Vulnerability or need for vulnerability does that. And with my dear Mistress stuck at the coast, semi-distant on a regular basis I find myself needing a channel of expression. Perhaps it will be a good way to analyze my thoughts and experiences to better communicate with her, or even understand myself.

It seems like a good day to make my first entry. First of all, i'm clingy. I used to be clingy as fuck, but i've been working on it for a few years. Dragoness (thats my special name for her and no I wont use her first name on here) and I already exprienced a bit of tension because my clingy overcommunication got to us a month ago and were making sure we dont overwhelm each other, or underwhelm each other with communication as happened after and affected me. My Lady hasnt texted me or called me today, so it makes me a little edgy. I was in a bit of a bad mood and hoped i could speak with her. But I got through it, through positive thinking and perseverance, and not passing out from my tiredness. Its been quiet interesting. It also reminded me that I am strong, and can solve my own problems and use my own positivity to persevere. And im aware I said persevere twice. I'm redundant, but i'm pretty enough for it to get through it.

So i think i'm going to start making a habit to blog on days like today, where I havent adequately expressed my thoughts to anyone or my Lady is distant and I need to vent. This has actually really helped. Also I'll tell stories and stuff. And i'll make a lot of puns. In fact theres a hidden pun in the name of this blog.


Goodnight everybody, and stay classy.