innocent

 

Am I crazy in that I don’t think innocent is equal to naivety? I have always thought of innocent as sweet, caring, and lacking in ill intent. I mean there are different degrees of it, as a newborn will have a unique brand of innocence, but so too can a senior rocking on the porch, or a civilian caught by combat.

I know what people mean when they speak of sex in terms of innocence, generally a lack of sexual understanding, passion or carnal knowledge. I would say someone who doesn’t understand physical and psychological romance to be naive, but that doesn’t make them innocent.

And thusly someone passionate and sexually active, I have found, can still be the picture of innocence, depending on the person. I have met so many wonderful people in my lifestyle that I could refer to as such. There is a sweet lovely switch (mostly dom) woman I played with back in the interior, and I would have to say she has an innocence to her. I would hardly say she lacks skill, passion or knowledge of the human body's breaking points, but she is of the utmost good intent and kindness (especially to her playmates).

I see it especially in other submissive’s. Sweet caring and innocent, wanting only for their master or mistress’s pleasure and joy. There are many selfish and not so innocent subs too, but that's besides the point.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, I would really like it if we as a culture, especially we in the bdsm lifestyle, stopped using the concept of innocent as a bad thing.

my two cents.  

Obedient Freedom –by kadri

On bent knees obedient
Your passion commands my will
My chains are Freedom

big play weekend

I am starting to feel a lot of relaxation in life lately. I’ve become easiergoing with the world, and am taking a fucktonne of vitamin B just to keep the stress from bouncing back at me again. Work has gone mostly better, less demands on me, (knock on wood). I’ve settled into my new apartment. Though I keep worryign its not neat enough to take a different pictures.

 

I’m also excited about kink for the first time in a while. This weekend I’ll be playing with a friend I paly with now and then, as she’s learning more and more dominant skills and doing a great job of it. And I’m also tentatively meeting up with a potential regular play partner for a first time trial. It’s going to be very exciting. Also a local pro domme of some talent has taken an interest in me, which was a real surprise. I can’t afford to pay for play but she wants to play with me, so we are looking at finding a way for her to do that, and not damage her professional rep by giving out freebies. I might be doing some little services for her to even the score.

This leads me to a new point. Pay for play. Does it feel the same?

I have the utmost respect for professional dominants, in that they provide an essential therapeutic service to many submissives or masochists in need. If I went long enough without a playmate or actual play of any sort I would likely save up and take that opportunity myself. Is it worth it though? Is it the same feeling. For me my submission is all about giving my vulnerability to my dominant, and knowing they are getting more (if not as much) out of taking power over me than I am in surrendering it. The concept of paying gives me an apprehension in that suddenly it would feel like a purchase, not a surrender. Suddenly I'm paying for my fantasies to be delivered, for the illusion of dominance where in actuality its something I'm selecting off of a menu with no real assurance its a valuable submission to that dominant. Does she/he have that power or are they a contractor providing business? Its a grey area that makes me uncomfortable. I know a few people who are or have been professional and they have had excellent experiences. Perhaps I should ask them their thoughts on it. It never really seemed like something I'd need to think about until now. How important is that sense of actual surrender I wonder. If it’s a bought feeling is it as good?